"I'm a mess," she says, combing a stray strand of her hair back from her face and trying to tuck it behind her ear. "I just...I never thought it would happen, but I've just...I've lost so much that maybe I've stopped feeling it. I feel like..I ought to be weepin' and wailin' and pulling at my hair, you know? Instead, I just feel..." She frowns. "I'm just so tired, Sam."